AM Update

I’ve got assignments, an interview and things to go do shortly, but had some time this morning to catch up with Katrin Berndt’s YouTube and this post. She has two New Year’s videos, one which is over an hour long. I previously unsubscribed to the email subscription, but every once in awhile check the channel. For me they are a good reminder when I feel like I’ve said or shared too much that there is always someone braver and more revealing who isn’t afraid to show that in front of their audience or peers. This isn’t always the message or best reason to tune in because her approach changes from week to week and year to year. I was just thinking she has too much going on in her life with variations on her shows, club and what-not. In actuality I believe the presentation style adapts with an ever-changing support base that is fickle with competing technologies for our attention span… If you missed my update yesterday, I added a link to an EP at the end of Ari the digiponi’s listening list. I started shading on the practice skin last night as well with some lines using only the needle. I kept experimenting until the needle broke off the part that normally hooks it to the machine. Catch up later.

Early evening

It’s still light outside and the dark picture of Ari hangs worryingly by the wall at the window to my kitchen. I might add a few more songs to the favorites, but she is getting picky and doesn’t want to share everything. I’m going to practice on the faux skin slab with the previously stenciled design that is a duplicate of the one next to it I did with the machine. It’s a skull on the ground with leaves under the teeth and cacti growing out the top. I’m not totally sure what happens with practice skin tattoos. Often you see the creepy hand as you walk into a shop with a rose or something similar and later start to realize some artist may have did that before becoming a paid professional. They are sad in a way because no one really gets to wear it and they eventually have to impress, but for the artist it may be the only one they keep. Unless I toss it into the landfill, in that case I don’t see this material decomposing anytime soon. So that is just as haunting as shopping bags if they aren’t recycled. I added a few checklist items to the Pinterest to-do list for drawing, though I’m having a tough time pinning more to it. Is it drawer’s block, a rights issue, originality depression or holding myself back? The temptation is there with anything one gets passionate about to blur the lines and I get really keen to those lines without a mentor or teacher. So I’m at where I was with music when I stopped publishing the audio mixes and started mixlists. I hate to be a hypocrite or take one art less serious than the other. Talk to you later.

Early evening

It’s still light outside and the dark picture of Ari hangs worryingly by the wall at the window to my kitchen. I might add a few more songs to the favorites, but she is getting picky and doesn’t want to share everything. I’m going to practice on the faux skin slab with the previously stenciled design that is a duplicate of the one next to it I did with the machine. It’s a skull on the ground with leaves under the teeth and cacti growing out the top. I’m not totally sure what happens with practice skin tattoos. Often you see the creepy hand as you walk into a shop with a rose or something similar and later start to realize some artist may have did that before becoming a paid professional. They are sad in a way because no one really gets to wear it and they eventually have to impress, but for the artist it may be the only one they keep. Unless I toss it into the landfill, in that case I don’t see this material decomposing anytime soon. So that is just as haunting as shopping bags if they aren’t recycled. I added a few checklist items to the Pinterest to-do list for drawing, though I’m having a tough time pinning more to it. Is it drawer’s block, a rights issue, originality depression or holding myself back? The temptation is there with anything one gets passionate about to blur the lines and I get really keen to those lines without a mentor or teacher. So I’m at where I was with music when I stopped publishing the audio mixes and started mixlists. I hate to be a hypocrite or take one art less serious than the other. Talk to you later.

PM Update

Going to ramble about some sort of personal stuff. On food stamps and part of the deal is applying for 30 jobs a week for four weeks, then community service. I was getting free help for over two months with invaluable drawing experience and even now, I still am not losing character. It was such a bad year and I feel like I’m getting attacked spiritually from all over the place. With tattoo culture and dance music, my experience tells me beware… If you are trying to follow the previous two years for some reason, like conjuring up a spirit and getting a tat of it with the accompanying mix, please be careful and don’t say I didn’t warn you. It’s pretty awesome I’m still alive, but my soul is sick. I haven’t slept well in three years I think and I used to be the type that could hit the snooze until it was late afternoon. I added a few tracks to Ari’s favorites and if you saw the burning vehicle on the artwork of one of those, it looks like she stepped out of that car on the final shading. Digiponi is burnt to a crisp (*now on instagram), but to be honest if she was on someone of darker skin tone, this example would show how I can make the details still stand out, with the exception of the eyes. Most of the base color is gray. It was fun working on that because this pony is much different than the others. She has a good sense of humor and is very brave. In sum however I’m not planning on proceeding to the next step as tattoo artist this year, unless you count drawing prep. Buenas noches.

1/4 1 week

Ari’s Favorites has been updated… Does anyone want to see the tattoo piece from 2019? It’s difficult to photograph with six front and back on the right lower leg, the diamond on the left, two ghosts on the left bicep and Fiona in Japanese on the right wrist. Are we going to have 2020 celebrity man and woman for 2020? What did Lil Wayne and Anna Torv do? I didn’t keep track, but I almost became a tattoo artist and started drawing movie inspired stuff. Last night and today was like the end of the world for me and I had enough money to get some white ink to make shades of gray and stencil transfer gel. I’m going to stay up trying to pick some project goals to draw. I posted the flowers last night on instagram (@djckwal). One week until the mini-trip.

Evening update

I miscalculated some spendings and realized I had a choice to get a tattoo machine kit. I could afford the cheapest one, but ran out of time to decide properly as the store was closing. After going through India town for spices, I remembered about the host renewal situation. I wad told about a free host, but chose to renew until June at the current space. Servers are located in Luxembourg I believe and the company is based in France. The site has been published remotely to there for the whole five plus years. Ari is done with pencil and although partially traced, took one week. I’m deciding whether to put pen over that or how to finish the drawing otherwise.

Resolutions

I don’t have the luxury of making big plans for 2020. I went to bed early and was awoken just before midnight to remember previous years. I read somewhere that what you are doing at the strike of twelve is what you will be doing most in the new year. I think I was drawing and looking out the windows for fireworks. Every year previous with the bridge mix contrary to the name, I got the impression of a fresh start with new themes, big ideas and major changes. This year with no musical bridge, it’s like everything has carried over from ‘worst year ever’ and possibly made impossibly worse. I’ll have some patience as it takes awhile for ‘new decade’ to sink in. I’m already sick of the term. I was writing some resolutions for Ckwal and pondering them deeply. I applied for biblical counseling to get even better prepared for spiritual concerns and environment between the mixes and art because last year practically shut me down. I am only human, but in concept Ckwal is not 100%. I thought about reducing my vegan strictness. Processing fine lines, Vegan Action standards (U-D, vegetarians at heart), dining at vegetarian restaurants or choosing vegan dishes at regular restaurants of the masses. I haven’t been to an actual restaurant for over two years. I used to sit in a fast food joint and sip what I thought was an alright beverage to find it had something like insect extract for color. After that I was cooking bread out in the park when I was staying in shelters. These are major lifestyle changes and even with not feeling single through last year’s project, I don’t sense a need right now to entertain a date out. In addition to those considerations, I would like to add ‘Movie Selection of the Week’, ‘Drawing of the Month’, discontinue celebrity birthdays and catch up on mixes while still adding listening lists with no pressure. One new ten year plan is for more travelling with ‘Destination of the Month’. If possible in the next ten years, Ckwal would like to expand official business for personal protection and to be able to apply for official visas. So far it’s been official only to meet a few important requirements, but everything has been mostly funded from personal income like a hobby. Eventually it would be cool to extended from arts & entertainment to international education and liberal arts as well as performance. I imagine DJing live when I am in my late forties or fifties even though I’m not interested in it now. Finally, undecided about tattoo culture, it’s journey for me as an individual and artist and my role plans or what role has been planned for me.

Flickering website

Thanks to ‘Free File Convert’ for help with backup and conversions of posts.  Flower page two has been finished and going to work on a butterfly page next after the digital space pony which I traced over an American DJ par can.  New songs added below are favorites from/in association with working at pony above that Deviant artist calls a steampunk-esque flutterbot. This is the second installment in the ‘Favorites’ Series’. Lists that may or may not be mixed. I nicknamed her Ari just now after ‘Thank You Next’.

Ari’s Favorites

Kaniun – Freedom (Extended Mix)
Friend Within – Space Jam (Extended Mix)
Matrix – Hold On (feat. Raphaella)
Becky G – 24/7
G Jones – Dark Artifact
Habstract – De la Street
Siren – Reson8
Slay – Who Are You
Spaces Laces & Topi – Whiplash
Mefjus – Bubble (with Phace) &/or Amber (with Skeptical)
Culprate – Jelly & Ice-Cream (this ‘Others’ 8 track set is a good listen)

Two more days

I have pen to go over the pencil with on the second to last flower. I used one needle to practice hand poke on the first practice skin. I added some details to the pony’s hair and freckles as well as scribbles in test. They are 3 round liners and it takes many stabs at it to make an impression. I thought of the movie Scream. You know if you’ve gone too far if you reach the other side of the skin and tap the table at 3mm depth. Dragoart makes them and is the name of the shop within walking distance from my apartment. I had a conversation with the owner and family, I think, who seemed to have communicated that they don’t test on animals or brand anything that wouldn’t be vegan even though they are made in China. I am pondering waiting until after the blood donation appointment in January to do a hand poke tattoo on myself, but actually don’t think it will happen as I wanted to resume donations at Red Cross after the one year from piercing restrictions. It should be good practice for needle control and some artists professionally do it like that for regular pay because they believe it’s rooted in historical tradition and looks artistic with controlled details. Site has been on and off and digital cash donations would really be helpful currently. Stay tuned for Ckwal’s resolutions.

Classic Editor Plug-in

Testing this WordPress plug-in to see if I can post. I sketched the most recent addition to pins and have two flowers remaining on the second more complex page of my drawing expedition. Plus printed out the digital pony from Deviant. I’m pretty much only drawing until I get a regular job which is making me write more on applications. There will be limited to no updates on the NYE listening list and the countdown is on to the mini-trip to Dallas on Jan. 11th and 12th. Goal is to complete the 14th and 15th blood donation units since I started. It hasn’t been easy and makes one sacrifice more than you’d expect keeping regular with it, but worth it having a guiding purpose behind the scenes of the calendar.